So here we go again

The two of us in a freezing cold room surrounded by 6 strangers. Unbelievably, Tara again refused all pain relief. You can never feel more useless than when you stand beside your wife, watching, holding her leg, and telling her she is doing good. After the doctor suggesting that it was a girl, at 12:12 we were proud parents of a new son. At that point we had a problem. We only had names for girls. He looks so big for under 5lbs. His face is very mature. He had the long skinny feet of his brother Jack. Mom has a quick snuggle with her new son, and he is gone to the NICU. The last contact for the two for some time. Tara looks in great shape. She is alot of pain, and only wants to see her boy. We wheel her away to her room. She keeps asking if I am OK.